Dear Crew-

You fell asleep in my arms while I was breastfeeding this afternoon. You've been doing that less and less. I put you in your crib and then regretted it. I wanted you back in my arms. You're getting so big. I wish I could freeze time. I love breastfeeding. I love breastfeeding you.

You've taken to tapping my boobs when you want breastmilk and I think it is the most adorable thing ever. You want breastmilk all of the time. I stress a little on how we're going to stop. With Akarie (my longest breastfeeder), we naturally breastfed less and less. You breastfeed a lot of your age.

I have no plans of stopping for now. However, I've always had a policy to stop by two. That means we're on our final stretch. It makes me so sad. I'm grateful you were an easy breastfeeder and you've lasted this long. I've heard so many tales of babies who stop on their own.

For about two weeks you got into the habit of slurping your milk after detaching. I could see the milk in your mouth and it was the funniest thing. Now I slurp after you finish feeding just to watch you do it.

You still do not talk. At all. You communicate through grunts and saying, "Oh." You were saying, "Uh oh!" in Sacrament today. I don't even hear you call me "Mama" anymore. I haven't worried yet because you are so interactive and cute and normal.

You clap when you see something you like. I find this so hilarious. If I pull out a yogurt or M&M's you clap and go "Yay!" It is the cutest.

You floor flop a lot. Nana nicknamed this. Basically, when somebody tells you no, you fall to the floor and lay there, pouting. You don't cry. You just are sad and don't want anybody to hold you. It's so dang precious. Although you have floor flopped on some pretty gross floors.

You're beginning to like TV. I'll admit that it's not on a great deal when you're awake. However, we have discovered that you like watching "home movies." These are vlogs that I edit together of our everyday life. You really like watching them.

I love you, Crew! You are the best. I'm so grateful you are mine.

Love,
~Mom

Dear Crew-

You are one silent baby. You'll babble sometimes but your speaking has been sketchy. I know you know "Mama" and guess what? That was your first word! I was so excited about that. Your second word was "Nana." We went to Sam's Club with Nana and Grandaddy to eat. As they were driving away, you pointed to their car and exclaimed, "Nana!"

Tonight, you finally said, "Dada." Dad was driving away and you said a few times, "Da!" It was so cute. I made Dad stop and roll down his windows but you wouldn't say it when Dad could hear it.

I'm not going to lie, you are going through a very trying stage. You get into everything. You're either getting into trouble or you want to be held. It's quite exhausting. I'm trying to treasure up this time period but I'm ready to be done with this stage. It's hard to go anywhere or do anything with you. You're always on the move and always causing mischief. I look forward to the days where we can do things as a whole family.

Some examples from this week: Dad took Dallin and Akarie to watch an outdoor movie tonight. I stayed home with you and Bria. Bria would have been fine, you would have been a nightmare. Dad went bowling with Dallin, Akarie and Bria. I ran errands with you. We spent ten minutes at the bowling ally and I was done.

I'm not sure about your personality. You're definitely sensitive. You're enthusiastic. You are stubborn. From time to time, I'll find you doing your clenched fist thing when you get mad. It's seriously my favorite. You also flop on the floor to pout. You don't cry, you just flop. Sometimes you'll run and flop on the floor. I find this amusing and your Nana especially finds this amusing. You do it all the time.

Okay, I can't think of anything else, my sweet precious baby. I really do love having you this young! I still love breastfeeding you. Although I can't believe how big you are all of the sudden. It hit me the other day that I would never breastfeed a little baby again. Sigh.

I love you,
~Mom