Thursday, October 31, 2019

Dear Crew-

Today was Halloween. I want to say it was your first but I guess it was your second. It seems like your first because you were actually old enough to participate! How weird for you to wear a ridiculous costume and walk up to strangers for candy.

You had the walking up to people down. You would hold your bucket up and stare at them. Then you would continue to stare at them and not move after you had your candy. Anything verbal was beyond you this year.

I'm sad to say, you only went to a few houses before I took you home. You wanted to walk this year and you were a pain! You didn't want to walk with us but did your own thing. Whenever I carried you to the rest of the group, you wriggled and fussed.

Dad and I decided you had enough. You were pretty bummed about being at home. However, I let you eat candy the whole time your siblings were gone and that perked you right up.

You are such a sweet boy. You gurgle a lot of made-up words. You've started speaking a lot more the past few days. You can say, "Hello!" really clearly. It's pretty dang cute to hear you say it. You can also say, "Mama" and "Dada" and "Nana." You can say, "Dallin" but it just comes out as "Da!" The rest of your siblings names are beyond you. Oh! You can say, "breastmilk." It sounds something like a tiny bit of baby gibberish ending in "ma!" I need to get it one film. You are a stinker with the camera! You have a sixth sense and pout and refuse to do anything cute when I'm taking a video.

After your siblings went to sleep, I sat and breastfed you for a long time. I love breastfeeding you. I'm not a touchy person but I sure do love snuggling with you. You fall asleep on me less and less these days. After a solid 45 minutes of breastfeeding, I put you to bed awake. You were tired though. You stayed laying down in my arms as I carried you to bed. Then you let me kiss you on the mouth a dozen times before finally pushing my face away.

I love you, Crew!
~Mom

Sunday, October 13, 2019

Dear Crew-

You fell asleep in my arms while I was breastfeeding this afternoon. You've been doing that less and less. I put you in your crib and then regretted it. I wanted you back in my arms. You're getting so big. I wish I could freeze time. I love breastfeeding. I love breastfeeding you.

You've taken to tapping my boobs when you want breastmilk and I think it is the most adorable thing ever. You want breastmilk all of the time. I stress a little on how we're going to stop. With Akarie (my longest breastfeeder), we naturally breastfed less and less. You breastfeed a lot of your age.

I have no plans of stopping for now. However, I've always had a policy to stop by two. That means we're on our final stretch. It makes me so sad. I'm grateful you were an easy breastfeeder and you've lasted this long. I've heard so many tales of babies who stop on their own.

For about two weeks you got into the habit of slurping your milk after detaching. I could see the milk in your mouth and it was the funniest thing. Now I slurp after you finish feeding just to watch you do it.

You still do not talk. At all. You communicate through grunts and saying, "Oh." You were saying, "Uh oh!" in Sacrament today. I don't even hear you call me "Mama" anymore. I haven't worried yet because you are so interactive and cute and normal.

You clap when you see something you like. I find this so hilarious. If I pull out a yogurt or M&M's you clap and go "Yay!" It is the cutest.

You floor flop a lot. Nana nicknamed this. Basically, when somebody tells you no, you fall to the floor and lay there, pouting. You don't cry. You just are sad and don't want anybody to hold you. It's so dang precious. Although you have floor flopped on some pretty gross floors.

You're beginning to like TV. I'll admit that it's not on a great deal when you're awake. However, we have discovered that you like watching "home movies." These are vlogs that I edit together of our everyday life. You really like watching them.

I love you, Crew! You are the best. I'm so grateful you are mine.

Love,
~Mom